Better Off Without “Better Off Ted”

After a watching episode one of the new show starring none other than the gorgeous Portia de Rossi I can safely say that we were all better off prior to the premiere of the show. Characters are hollow, plot-lines are shallow, and the shows budget is evident in every scene. Why couldn’t they have just maintained good shows that weren’t overacted? Hell, I’ll settle for those that were deviously over-acted but that were enjoyable like Pushing Daisies or Carpoolers!

Snoring on the Downstairs Couch, Stead of Sleeping in Bed

My life is a good life. I should not be stressed and I should not be freaking out, but I am.

I am in the process of a major overhaul of who I am mentally, emotionally, and physically and I feel very weary.

I might have an ulcer, all I know is that I have extreme pain in my stomach everytime I eat and sometimes in between.

I also know I have now had two panic attacks in four days which is up from the one had before it a month and a half ago during finals week.  I’m not sleeping well and I wake up in the middle of the night expecting him to be in the bed with me only to face the harsh reality that I am in my bed alone and consequently need to keep myself warm and get over it.

I’m really trying to be a good friend/any relational connection I might have with someone else, and I know I’m completely failing at it.  I’m a constant C student when it comes to relationships (romantic and non), and I just need to commit to doing a better job.  I’m trying not to be self-centered and at the same time, this is exactly a moment where I need help with basically everything else in my life.  What a conundrum.

I am really tired of two of my friends.  One insists on nagging me or interrogating me about anything personal I tell him/her and it’s very frustrating.  The other definitely has feelings for me and I don’t know what to do with him/her because I don’t feel the same way and him/her won’t back the fuck off.

School is my only repreive, and I hate school.  Which you would know, if you know me.  I don’t know at what age my hatred of school began or what triggered it, but studying sucks.

Ok, that’s my bitching for the moment.  Which is just my way of relaxing post panic attack so that maybe I can go to sleep.  I think I’ll go watch the new episode of carpoolers and then fall asleep.